children of chaos
by zim
This painting is my example of that stage. I have a dog, and my roommate has a cat. Sometimes I woke up from 5 pm or even 8 pm in the dark. I looked at my dog and the messy bed, and I started to feel my life was such chaos, and it felt uncontrollable at that moment. So what I would do is turn my head around to that I won’t keep seeing these things. And usually, what happens next is that I will be depressed for a little bit, but then I will get up and start to clean, or whatever will make me feel better about my life. Then slowly and slowly, I will be right on the track.
My direction for this painting is also about borrowing the old story or the symbology into my work. When I think about how my mood is changing during this time (like I feel chaotic at first, then I will do lots of good things to make my life back on the right track), this process makes me think about the Greek story about chaos.
“The story is about all the children of chaos; two of them are named Erebus (Darkness)and Nyx (Night). Their sex union produces luminous offspring – Aether (the Divine Air) andHemera (The Day).”
children of chaos
2022
36”x48”
oil on canvas
“a stage of life or a statement of life where people don’t want to face the brutal chaotic reality, so they turn their faces to the wall or the mirror and run away from it. But this feeling is temporary, our guilt of running away from the reality would push us to get up and pull ourselves back to the right track.”